Know this thing called faith? How people continue to hold a strong belief in something with no evidence?? We should applause for the courage of such people.

But when there are so many evidence which eventually led to the build up of faith; can you still overlook that possible belief?? I want to question all the belief I've held so strongly to. But I've also came to realize that ignorance is bliss.

I wonder how many people have actually wasted their time waiting for someone in vain. Sometimes just waiting or to be kept in suspense could easily be a blessing in disguise. Even if friends advised against it, and tell you its foolish because there are greener pastures.

However, when you decide that you no longer want to wait or to be kept in suspense anymore. That is when you have to muster the courage to acknowledge that the wait could possibly be in vain... And all belief can be overthrown, no matter how much faith you've once had...

Don't ask me if it's worth it. I'm still searching for the answer.

It's the last weekend before Christmas and I'm sitting on a stack of flyers at my booth, working and typing this post. The long awaited holiday is finally here. Even though I have to kiss my Ace goodbye for the Resort Management paper since I did not finish it in time, I'm glad the term is over for the time being... Headed to town with Farouk and I really want to spend my money on something but nothing seems to catch my eyes. Even the mango sales was disappointing; at least to me.

It is unimaginable how fast time flies this year. Six months in the states just went by like this, then back to school and now its the term break already. Before I know it, I'll be done with school and graduation will come. THEN! WHAT DO I DO??? I hate to imagine if I can't get a spot in the local university.

My schedule for January is TOTALLLY INSANEEE, btw!!!!

Okay, I don't really have much to say. I'm looking forward to the commencement of the week and Christmas :))

Bye y'all :))

teenage dreams in a teenage circus

I am angry at situations which may seemed to be very well-justified. Feeling angsty at situations which are so well justified that I can't rebutt leaving me with no reasons to be angry. Yet I know, I have all the rights to be angry and I want to say it out loud. But the idea of voicing it out makes me seemed ridiculous and that's the last thing I want from myself. Maybe I am frustrated because I feel too cooped up.

It may make no sense to you, so don't bother deciphering.

At the very least, it makes sense to me.

It was a very good day today, lots of food for thoughts. So, I was told I'm too soft-hearted which is why I can get pushed around easily. At least, I forgive and forget too easily and too quickly when the issues concerns the people I love. I don't know if its a bad thing to cave in too much. Maybe I just didn't want to deal with the aftermath.

I don't know if things which I do or convince myself of are merely sheer efforts on my part to grasp on tightly. Hanging on tightly to loose, thin threads.... Who knows, you may have long let go. Or worst, was never in existence.

Read as you may; but don't bother asking me the catalyst behind this post. If it struck a chord in your heart, then good for you. Like I say; its all food for thought.

BURNT AND SNAPPED!

HELLOOOO......

After almost having to burn the midnight oil, I've finally submitted six service journal and six analysis at noon. Completely relieved and exhausted.

The day was only made worst when I had to sit through two hours of decision sciences about some constraints and yield management. Then additional assignments were given to us due this friday because we're too slow in our learning.

A blank document now awaits me and the blinking cursor kept prompting me to start working on my marketing analysis for entrepreneur due later this week on friday.

At the back of my mind, I kept thinking if I should go look through my role play script and think of some buffer to save me from my teacher's attack tomorrow. So tell me; which should I do now?!?!?!

It an endless cycle of projects and assignments all shoved to us. We can have two to three assignments due on a day, how crazy is that! I feel like a rubber band right now; stretched and I just hope I don't snap anytime soon.

I wanna go party this Wednesday so I need to buck up and complete my work. The dance floor and Lady Gaga is ushering me to join in. I can feel it in my bones... i just need to complete my work first... ROARRRRRRR

This is a good weather to head out of the door in a pretty dress matched with an oversized cardigan to enjoy the after-rain breeze.

Walk down the street, get a seat in an alfresco cafe, order a drink and cake; preferably a chocolate cake and waste the afternoon away admist the company and banter of my friends.

This was what I wanted to do the moment the rain stopped and the weather calmed down.

Sad fact of life: I was stuck indoor working on assignments while I dreamed away the possiblity of that happening. Each time the breeze hit me through my room's window, I want to text someone, get dressed and leave the house. But I did not.

So here I am, watching the cursor blink on my unfinished sentence in my report and occasionally checking on FB. My only source to the outside world's happening...

BELLA SWAN, EDWARD CULLEN

Having spent a smashing six months away from home, school and most importantly reality has thrown me off the equilibrium, completely. Sometimes, I wish I could just stay in Disney, work for Mickey and Nemo, make friends with the world, paying peanuts for expensive/exclusive labels and party my ass off (though I'm no where near the legal age to drink).
But fuck, anything is better than what I have to deal with right now.

Assignment deadlines are hot on my heels but I have completely lost the motivation to study after the internship... THIS IS B-A-D!!!!!!!! Also thinking of what I want to do after graduation sends me into a frenzyyy. I have a couple of thoughts, one of which received instant disapproval from my dad but I disregard his thinking and will pursue it if possible. Qualitative modules are still manageable but Decision Sciences is really fucking my brain up, instant congestion!!!!!! Its supposedly a university module and so we're just skimming the surface. I thought it was really cool initially but now, i take back my words.

The only motivation to see me through is my Graduation Trip to Taiwan and maybe Bangkok. Am working the weekends to earn it and I can't wait for my pay to get in so I can book the tickets immediately. I need to escape this mundane town!

Just watched 2012 and I'm in awe with the effects and nonetheless; I'm pretty sure the movie struck everyone who watched it, unless, of course you have chosen to be oblivious (once again???). Many a time, we have chosen to turn a blind eye to all the disasters happening just because it doesn't strike or relate to us. But think of the Artic ice melting, drought causing the famine and damage of the ozone layer. All of which has its irreversible impact on us, so all fellow humans, be kind to the earth.


p.s. I wished I'm in the States so I can catch New Moon which is showing tomorrow(America time, i think). I'm so excited for the movie, I have been playing the trailer repeatedly and IF time permits, I'll re-read that chapter of the sage again...HEHEHE

I've decided to embark on a year long mission to organise my room; because no matter how much stuff i throw away, I can't seem to find the all the space for my clothes and bags. My earrings especially, are giving me a huge headache.

oh well... should have known better. BUT, its so hard to resist all the shopping in the states, I still feel like I should have bought more...

OK, SHUTUP!


Pictures from Bintan with Amber & East Coast Park with Fiona :)

Angsana Resort Bintan

East Coast Park - 30th Oct

me and fiona

madnesss~!!!!!

I haven't cycle in ages and that was some workout because my legs were aching when I got off the bike... But I love the sea breezeeee, Mmmm...

that's about it for noww...

Byeeeee :)))